Holding onto your Healing

 A week ago I received healing. 

Tuesday I started having intrusive thought. 

The devil told me “No one cares that you are here, everyone would be better off without you.” 

I was at work when I had these thoughts. I was busy working on prior authorizations for biological medications, arranging shipments from pharmacies that keep you on hold forever, preparing paperwork for afternoon patients that needed testing. 

It wasn’t some haunting voice that told me these lies. It was my inner voice. I sent a text to my husband and my parents. Then I went back to my work. I am so blessed to have people in my life that I can text and know that they will drop what they are doing and pray. 

It was a busy day and I didn’t get to check my phone for awhile so when I looked at my phone there were a lot of notifications. They were worried about me, rightly so. Depression, anxiety and suicide were generational curses in my family. Jesus died on the cross and shed his bled to bring healing, deliverance and freedom. Not just for me, not just for you, but for our families and the generations to come. Because of Yahweh’s grace, mercy, and blessings I am free! My children will be free! And that makes Satan mad! 

John 10:10 says “The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.”

Satan knows that he can’t compete with God! Satan knows he is powerless! So he tries to being doubt into our minds, confusion, fear. It is all lies of the enemy! Jesus says, “So if the Son sets you free, you are truly free.” John‬ ‭8‬:‭36‬ ‭NLT‬‬

If Jesus said it, you can depend on it! 

Healing is something that I have to walk in daily. I have to be diligent to rebuke the attacks of the enemy. When I am at home, I keep praise and worship music. When I am at work at my desk, I keep praise and worship music on. Praise and worship are how we fight our battles. God inhabits our praises! Don’t let the lies of the enemy sidetrack you! Hold onto the truth and promises of the Jehovah Jireh, our provider! Jehovah Rapha, the Lord that heals! Jehovah Nissi, the Lord that reigns in victory! Jehovah Shalom, the Prince of Peace. 

This post isn’t pretty or eloquent. This post is me being real though. Don’t let the enemy win or gain a foothold. Fight for your victory!

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